How am I? - Pregnancy and mental health

Pregnancy is by far the most challenging things I've experienced so far. Mentally, physically and 
emotionally. Mix that with the hormones and mental health issues prior to pregnancy, it's been one 
hell of a rollercoaster. And I've still got 2/3 months left. I was unsure about doing a post about mental 
health during pregnancy as I don't want to come across as being ungrateful or miserable. I am beyond 
excited for this next journey and chapter of my life and after being told my chances of having children 
were extremely slim, it makes it even more special. However that doesn't mean I'm finding this journey 
easy or that I'm enjoying it. 

Since the day after I found out I was pregnant, I have been in and out of hospital. Whether that be extra 
appointments, ultrasounds and checks or making recommend trips from professionals and paramedics due 
to extensive pain. All of these trips start to take a toll. Physically it's exhausting and draining. The walking 
around, constant sitting and standing around, being poked and prodded by doctors and nurses. Emotionally 
you are tired and constantly worried about every little thing, especially with it being a first pregnancy. 
Mentally you are shattered, with your hormones being all over the place, hearing new terms and being told 
things from every professional that makes no sense until you get back home and ask your mom. 

Although I know I have support around me I have never felt so alone. Knowing that the pain I'm feeling 
can't be experienced by someone else. Constantly messaging other people to get advice and find out if this 
twinge is normal, or if I should be crying so easily over some sausage rolls. Trying to agree on nursery 
schemes, clothing styles, names and so much more with your partner and getting upset when you can't 
have it your way, even though you know that's not fair and doesn't work like that. 

There are entire days and weekends that I can't get out of bed and don't want to. Clinging on to the last 
few months of being childless and fewer responsibilities. I spend most nights struggling to get too sleep, 
not just because I'm uncomfortable and being kicked from the inside in every direction, but also because 
I'm extremely anxious and depressed and finding it harder to process everything that is going on. 

All little arguments and bickers seem 100x more intense than they really are. Starting to question if this is 
going to affect things, but knowing that you're over reacting and this is because your hormones are going 
wild. I've noticed that my anxiety and depression has been heightened since being pregnant and everything 
is so much more intense. Constantly on edge and worried about every minor detail. I'm spending most of 
my time worrying about things that are out of my control and aren't planned until months after I'm due. 

Despite all of this, there are still parts I'm ecstatic about. I love going to my ultrasounds and seeing how 
much he has grown. I have loved buying clothes and getting his nursery ready. Choosing his name and 
how it will be spelt, imagining it on his school work and driving license. I love feeling him wiggle around 
every day, even if I don't feel well and continue to be sick. I love that I got this extraordinary chance to be 
pregnant and grow a baby. I can't wait to see his face for the first time and have that first moment with him 
on my chest, after carrying him for 9 months. Getting to bring him to his first home and seem him grow 
and hit milestones, experiencing his firsts and making memories with him. 

Although there have been times where I couldn't imagine going forward because of the pain I was in and 
struggled to get up and go to work because I haven't slept and won't stop being sick and what I'm going to 
be like as a parent, I wouldn't change it and I cannot wait to bring a beautiful baby boy into this world! 



  1. Such a wonderfully honest post about both the highs and lows of pregnancy. Definitely don't feel like you are moaning by saying how you feel, I hated being pregnant but it didn't mean I wasn't grateful for being pregnant and what it has now brought me!
    Amy x

    1. Thank you lovely! It definitely makes me have more appreciation to people who enjoy being pregnant and have multiple births

  2. Oh love! I felt this on so many levels. I love your honesty in this post. I'm sure so many women out there will agree and so many of us will be nodding our heads along with it. It's such a difficult one because although yes we should be grateful and we know this, we can't help but feel all of the feelings. All of which are totally valid btw. Such a juxtaposition! I hope you're doing okay! X

    1. Thank you! Just got to keep reminding myself, I've made it this far and I've not got long left now x

  3. Not every pregnancy is plain sailing, it's not like people on social media make it out to be. It's ok to say I don't like being pregnant. Growing a baby is a very demanding thing to do. Try and remember to take time for yourself, that might be a bath or a book. I am with you every step of the way. Love mom x

  4. I'm sorry to hear that your anxiety and depression have been heightened during your pregnancy. I love your honesty in this post as pregnancy is not all a bed of roses and isn't exactly plain-sailing. I've never been pregnant myself, but I can only imagine how tough and tiring it can be! x

    Lucy Mary

    1. I think social media doesn't help as you see people at their best, which isn't realistic. Pregnancy is so hard and demanding which is normal x

  5. It's so good of you to share your experiences in pregnancy. It's defo not all plain sailing, glowing and lunches out - it's hard work on the body and on your mind! My mum guilt crept in the moment I peed on the stick - that was something new to contend with!

    1. Thank you! Mom guilt is a whole other feeling. Didn't realise it would kick in so soon x

  6. As if you've only got 2-3 months left, that's flown! x

    Gemma Louise

    1. I feel like it's been so long, but probably because I found at a 4/5 weeks x