What's new in my life? - update



In my 6+ years of blogging, I share a lot of my life. I've shared the ups and downs, perhaps even 
overshared in some areas. Over the years I've learnt what I want to put online and what I want to keep 
private. However my personal life affects my blog, whether that be the content, quality of photos of my 
upload schedule. I haven't done an 'update' post since 2018 (view here), and obviously so much has 
changed since then. I'm not going to update you all on what's happened in the last 2 years but I feel like an 
explanation and update is needed, especially for those who have stuck around for all those years. 

The big elephant in the room - corona. Going back to when this started, we went into lockdown March 
23rd. The day before my 21st birthday. I was so gutted that my plans got cancelled, from family meals to 
nights out. I'm not going to lie, I was devastated. A big birthday that I still haven't celebrated. Thankfully I 
continued working up until the end of May. As I work in education I didn't end up going back to work 
until September. I thought those 4 months were going to be so productive. I wanted to improve my 
content, catch up on my reading and so much more. Instead I did nothing. Looking back the only thing I 
can remember doing is redecorating my bedroom. 

As this post goes live, we are entering our second official lockdown (starting tomorrow) and this time 
round I'm really worried. Back in March my life didn't change. I was still going to work, I only left the 
house to go to ASDA, like before, the only thing was that I couldn't see my family. With Christmas 
coming, blog work getting busier and being in a new relationship I'm worried about how my mental health 
will be impacted. I've been struggling with it a lot of the last few weeks, trying to hide it and blame it on 
other things but it's getting harder to do that. My BPD has hit me like a ton of bricks all of a sudden and I 
find myself searching through my books for an explanation on how I should be feeling and what to do.

As I mentioned I'm in a new relationship. Most of you will know that I ended my engagement at the 
beginning of the year and was single for the first time since I was 17. This year has given me the chance to 
find myself and realise what it is I want, both alone and in a relationship. And I got it. My boyfriend is 
truly everything I've been looking for. From a gentleman and holding my bags to being a soppy romantic 
and complimenting me all the time. But also having that banter and the ability to not take life to seriously. 
I did a blog post a few months back about why I won't be talking about my relationship online again, and I 
stick by that. I don't want the pressure of having to have a 'picture perfect' relationship online. The only 
people I care about with my relationship is me and my boyfriend. We are all that matters. 

In regards to blogging, I feel like everything's come at once. With COVID, it was so hard to work with 
brands and get collaborations as no one was working and if they were, they didn't have the finances to do 
so. As everything has started getting back on track, so has my collaborations and brand work. I've got 
some sponsored posts coming up soon and am working with some incredible brands to create some 
Christmas gift guides that will be coming in a few weeks time. I'm also trying to post more over on my 
Instagram and step out of my comfort zone. 

As things started returning back to normality, or as close as possible, I was lucky enough to get some more 
tattoos and even a couple piercings. I have met my boyfriends friends, group of 6 obviously, and some of 
his family. I have had some great times with family, chatting a bunch of rubbish whilst sat in a pub. 
There's a lot of things that didn't go to plan this year like I hoped, but a lot that has surprised me and 
turned into some incredible memories.

xoxo
Lea-Mai

12 comments

  1. I love you have found someone who makes you feel so special! Things are going to get better and better x

    Joyce | www.joycelauofficial.com

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    1. Thanks lovely! Hopefully next year we can do more x

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  2. It's so great that you found someone so special!

    NatalyaAmour.com

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  3. Ahh congrats on finding someone new who makes you smile, I am so chuffed for you! I feel the same about blogging, it was sooo quiet over the start of the summer and now it's really picked up. I can't wait to see your sponsored stuff!

    Rosie

    https:/www.loverosiee.co.uk

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    1. Thank you sweet! Looking forward to getting things done x

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  4. No relationship is picture perfect, we all have our ups and downs, and especially this year when it has been so trying on all of us. I am glad to hear that you are happier now :)

    Amy x
    The July Rose

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  5. I think we all just have to make the best out of this year, as well as we can. No way is the perfect way to do that!

    Gemma Louise

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    1. Got to find the positives in the little things x

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  6. It's mad that we're back into another lockdown!

    www.upyourvlog.com

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